what will be left of you? what will be your legacy? i thought about those questions tonight and it made me think of the many ways we disrespect each other, the earth and life in general, so easily, so deliberately... all done without a second thought or at times, even remorse, as if we get to have unlimited second chances to get it right.
i think. for guys out there who just can't seem to win with the ladies... this is all you need.

yesteday's and today's top 3:
I just got home from a mini trip to LA yesterday and I'm so glad to be back in the Bay. My sister and I were just discussing the air we breathed down there compared to the air we are currently filling our lungs with and hands down, my lungs, esophagus and brain are so much happier now that they're not being poisoned. Los Angeles and I have a love/hate relationship that has been ongoing ever since I moved to the States. Sometimes I love being down there and sometimes, I hate (with a passion) everything that is 'LA'.
My Love/Hate list from this weekend:
Love(d):
finally getting a chance to go on a roadtrip with my sister and T.
the company we were blessed to hang out with.
being somewhere else to take my mind off alllllll the things I have to do here.
laughing hard and long with my sis, T, Ellaine, and Faith.
seeing my uncle and cousin perform with their band.
seeing old Bay Area folks.
the rental car that drove like butter.
the eats -- some of them.
reminiscing and remembering my grandma when we passed by where she used to live.
Hate(d):
traffic.
smog.
traffic.
having to drive everywhere.
waiting over an hour for breakfast (seriously. never again).
traffic.
knowing the fact that LA was the birthplace of an irritable infant aptly named Road Rage.
Overall a good trip and a great time with two of my most favorite humans. Aside from the inescapable waste of time on the roads, I was glad to have had a weekend away from the adult responsibilities. Looking forward to another trip, hopefully.
After a good five hours of doing Photoshop homework, I figured it was time for some shuteye. I am currently one hour and fifteen minutes behind schedule on that, which probably means I'll be off to a lightning speed equal to a crawl in the morning. Is it the 20-minute power nap on the train that's messing up the rotation? Could it be because my 11 pm bedtime has come and gone? I know not what it is and I hate to think that my weekly bouts with insomnia have returned to fill my life with sleeplessness.
Since I'm wide awake, I guess I might as well make something out of this. Some random thoughts from Monday:
- it is never too early (on a Monday morning) to spit game on Bart
- getting to work before el boss is always a good thing, right?
- something that would usually take 10 seconds to do took 8 hours
- that warmer at the niner game sure bruised my legs up. Not cute.
- yes mr. President, I am in full agreement with calling kanye a 'jackass'
- AMD and price fixing = movie starring matt damon
- mental debate about unlimited texting...I don't think I really need it...just in case?...seriously, who texts me anyway?
- was my mouth open when I fell asleep on the train today? How embarrassing =(
- honesty can be anti-social
- "what happened?"
"what always happens. Life."
There it is... ahh sleep, you sly dog, you.
celebrations aren't necessary... i'm learning not to overly-romanticize anything in life, but i do want to acknowledge that i think it has been a year now. if not today/tomorrow, then it will be in a few days. i don't really know if there ever was a specific date chosen in the calendar. it matters not however, since getting here alone has been a celebration in and of itself.
easily, my favorite hi-five song.kinda dodged the radio-played-outtedness and commercialism and still a gem. other similar songs in that category:... read more
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